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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

10:36 PM

omg people guess what my name was in blogtv.sg's credits isnt that like the sex.yeapp under research assistants was like my name.damn i am so super happy right now.my first ever show production thingy but i must say that they really did cut out alot of parts of the show.yeapp from like a one hour something plus show to twenty three mintues.yeapp that indeed is really something.anyway had alot of meetings down today and yeapp i really have got alot of things to work on right now.so many things to do but totally so little time.i have like truckloads of research and everything to do right now.o and while doing research today i found this blog of ***** and it turns out that she has been doing alot of bitching of me.thanks.ok so that was like a blog of two and a half years ago but yea.what the hell i feel hurt.and i found another blog about this kc girl whom i shant name and it was so sweet i swear i almost cried.HAHA.i think i pissed my old chinese teacher off today by asking her about those blogs.owells i was doing research laah and it really is very vital indeed.most probably will be filming till quite late for the valentine's day special.i really wonder what will it be like to work late into the night.ooo maybe ill finally get to talk to glenda.but itll be pretty crazy i suppose as it will be aired like what the next day please.owells.gotta go now.bye.webcamming with dhan.sweet.i miss her already.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, January 28, 2007

9:49 PM

damn once i started work again i so dont have time for my leading ladies and my friends the horror and thanks trevis for saying such about me now i know what kind of friend you are.i miss my girls damn we should so meet up soon.ooo chinese new year is coming which means one word "moolah" i have decided to make it a point to try and visit every single relative this year.yes im nice.went to uncle thomas's golf shop today and tried putting for the first time.yes how nice i rock at it.well for a first timer laah.some stupid indian shit head was laughing at me yet when he tried putting his ball did not even come close to entering the hole yet he even put his ball so much nearer to the hole than me.idiot.had two new people in cell today.funny how i asked three different people what are their names yet now i seriously still cannot remember what are their names.owells cell is fun.however i really do think brother sam should make his messages a little more interesting.have it on such about the problems more teenagers or should i say youths face.that will catch more people's attention.i think im falling sick shit that is bad.work yet again tomorrow.i really hope it will be fun.please let me go for filming on tuesday even though i kinda screwed up on friday i promise i will be better heh (:

I MISS THEM!!! <3

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, January 26, 2007

11:33 PM

today was a uberly fun day as today was filming day.alright honestly today was a very tiring day.in fact all i want to do now is just to crash out.like they said though im having the weekend off this week i might not have such every week.ok.anyway did the usual tasks of conducting the various research of the different producers today.honestly i think amelia's show concept is uberly cool.alright now that would be very fun to go on set on.so hopefully i will get to do it.yes like i said hopefully that is.after that cabbed back down to njc for the blogtv's am i rude so what episode.how nice cheryl yet again.out of which yes she still has my pen.owells.filming was pretty good though i must say i got really pissed off over the mic issue as those kids just did not want to pass it back sometimes as they claim that their friend has something to say.owells.lets hope that im doing the canberra episode and that that episode would be funner.how funny as they used kenny's blog for this episode i really wonder whether would he actually be bothered to watch such a programme now watching the reaction of his face would really be very funny indeed.owells at least i got to watch my first film shoot now.heh.sweettttt.though i must say the hardest part of today was most probably the transcribing section as that was really tough.everyone was rushing to head home or should i say i was rushing to leave as i had a meeting with my leading ladies.sorry babes that i was so late.anyway cabbed down and finally got to meet them yet again after like so long.boy do i miss them.how nice we are going to have yet another girls day out outing really soon.after that went down to videoezy to rent videos with vann chong yuting and guess what the only videos which we actually rented were like cartoon.HAHAHA.owells it's called keeping in touch with your inner child.get it?heh (:

what can possibly be better than a day out with your girls?

my leading ladies <3

this is cute.but vann got cut ):

girlfriends <3

thrishna babyy

my sexy rina.vann bit me while this photo was taken

vann chong yuting (:

such happens when your with us

girlfriends <3

on the set of blogtv.sg

my new second home

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

10:27 PM

what a day man.though tiring i must say that i really did have a blast.luin brought me in to watch how the subtitles are added to productions today.yeapp talk about high definition those stuff in the editing room is just awesome.conducted loads of research today think i most probably will need to carry on with that yet again tomorrow.o and yes the GSO thing might really happen in the end.yay.how sweet.the tourism industry is just cool la.all of us producers and all went down to play captains ball later in the day too.i tell you everyone who walked past or drove past us thought we were insane or something as they seriously just stopped and stared and all.but yea it was really fun so hopefully we will do more of such yet again next week.what a great way to lose weight.i feel seriously very dumb now actually as i forgot to collect receipt for my cab fare so now all i have to do is just hope that i really does goes through my vp man.otherwise it's like 6.80 gone.the horror.anyway filming for blogtv with cheryl and fd tomorrow.guess that will be really really fun.first time on an actual film set in nj.yay hot bodies please.the teacher jasmine in nj is really hot too.yeapp for a teacher she's really hot.HAHA.ok i sound gay.vann thinks im crazy cause even though ive seen glenda chong for about four times already i still dont dare to talk to her.its just way too paiseh la.o and andrea chow is really hot in real life.anyway prison break in on now so bye

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Monday, January 22, 2007

6:49 AM

check out this "diary" entry written as a spoof on paris hilton.flipping funny

Dear Diary,
So, I totally have a new friend to tell you about today! It didn't really work out with Nicole when she was blonde (and between you and me, Diary, she is even less fun with the brown hair -- I mean, what's the point of having dark hair if you aren't hiding weed underneath it?), and, like, oh my GOD, dude, Kimberly Stewart was really NEEDY. She called me ten times a day until I made her cry that last time, and I SWEAR I caught her rooting through my bathroom trashcan, picking out my old extensions and taping them to a hair clip. Which, EW -- it looked EXACTLY like a hair clip from a drugstore, and not the FUN kind of drugstore, so GROSS.

Anyway, so I found this new blonde person now and I think it's going to work out because even though she kind of already worships me, she attracts WAY better photographers than Kimberly did. And, she's going through a totally rough time right now because she's getting a divorce, so she wants to party and dress up and stuff and get really dirty and freaky, which is my FAVORITE THING EVER to do. Like, this one time, I put on my favorite red party dress of that week, and she got out this old thing she used to wear when she and her husband played that weird Ice Dancing game where they were at the porn Olympics, and we decided to go out and party. And it was, like, TOTAL sisterhood, you know? And it was SO SWEET because we were really cold, and she remembered that her ex-husband had a bunch of old pieces of panty-hose in his drawer from the olden days when he would stick his head in them and then throw over a 7-11 (she used that word -- "throw over" -- I don't really know what that word means but it is so Law & Order I can't even STAND IT and I think I'm so good now at saying the word that I should probably order up a part on one of the episodes, right? Do you think they deliver?). But anyway, so we had these pieces of panty-hose but there were only two, so we each wore one -- me on my right leg, and her on her left leg, which I swore was her right leg, but she kept telling me it was her left and that she would know what her own left leg looks like since she was BORN with it, DUH, and you know what? I don't know what her left leg looks like, and maybe it looks like it's on the right -- there ARE people who are born that way, I'm pretty sure, and if she's one of them, then maybe we should start some sort of charitable manicure program that benefits the Righty Left Children or whatever. It's a good idea.

Anyway, it was soooo fun -- she's like the sister I never had! Sometimes we sit up all night and drink vodka from baby bottles and talk about boys and divorces and our music careers -- apparently, she had some albums and shit, but I don't REMEMBER Pamela Anderson having a record or anything, do you? But she got all mad and screamed that she did too have more hit songs than I did, and she didn't seem to like it when I called her out and said I'd never heard of any of her songs and that she would need to PROVE it. In fact, she ALSO didn't really like it that much when I called her Pamela, but dude, I KNOW Pamela Anderson when I see her -- like, those things are KIND OF hard to MISS, you know? They're bigger than Nicky's head! So anyway I told Pamela to shut up and finish her Zima and she kind of got upset again but then once she was done chugging it and then shotgunning her Bud Light (she said her mom calls it a Trailer Martini -- how kicky and retro! Also, does Pamela Anderson HAVE a mom? Wicked!) and then everything was fine again.

Can't wait to see sister Pammy tomorrow! We're gonna get tattoos that say P&P Music Factory (even if she IS lying about having all those albums) and it's going to RULE. I talked her into it after the third bottle of Jagermeister. She said it would be even better because Kevin would hate it ("Kevin" is how you say "Kid Rock" in Michigan speak -- they are so funny up there!). Whee! Paris and Pammy!
Sloppy kisses,
P

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, January 20, 2007

7:25 PM

alrighty just got my hair cut and my hair treatment donw today.alright though i love the texture of my hair right now i still think my hair looks really wrong somehow as it is pretty heavy at the top.what the hell that is what i call a really bad hair day.lets just hope that it is because they temporarily straightened it and that it was go back to its insane wavvy curly self by tomorrow.damn i so cannot go to work looking like some kind of crap on monday.that would be the horror man.anyway drama was pretty fun today being so totally shagged out i needed to ask everyone to repeat what they said twice as i just had not a clue.yes i am tired.still am though but yea.dxo tonight but i am not going.why?my parents want me to go to church tomorrow.what the hell that is just retarded i can always skip cell and head for speedlight but yea owells we shall see in the end.i need to get my body system in tuned with the fact that i have to sleep early and wake up early.damn this sucks.alright went out with cordelia tan yue yesterday yeapp it was pretty good caught up about the various cell members and all.turns out jian han is bring pushed up for leadership.interesting.but yea saw yanti,aida and sharif there too what a surprise guys still kinda bummed that i did not go for tp's open house.owells i got the goodie bag though so owells.taohuay went too.ahhh i miss her.anyway im bummed ciao.anyway to YOU well you know who you are please stop giving me all these wierd kinda excuses to me i am not as naive as you think i am so yea seriously but up yours!

if i wrote you a symphony

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

10:22 PM

went down to mediacorp today for my SIP (students internship programme) yeapp the interview was pretty good though there were some awkward moments like example to phone voicemail now that was pretty odd.well they seemed pretty interested in my previous job found it pretty strange though as they were like how long have you worked there for and i was like "eh two and a half weeks" ok now the rest are pretty personal so i shall not say much but it was pretty odd especially when they were like "so did you bring your cv?" and i was like eh what's that.ok so yea it was pretty awkward.but owells i got the job so that's good im going to be part of the current affairs crew.how hot.anyway im talking to miss raj kumar now.hello rina anyway i cannot concentrate on blogging now so yea bye!

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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

11:59 PM

yay what in the world can be better than a victoria secrets fashion show marathon.yes babyy just spent quite some time watching that of 2002,2003,2005 and 2006 damn that show just so motivates me to lose weight.i like think i should so better start watching them all over again.anyway woke up at twelve yet again i think my body system is really screwed up right now as i can only hit the sack at like past two.what the hell anyway went to vivo city today and i bought myself this really nice dress.HAHAHA.my mom said that there will be nice shoes there but what the hell there was like nothing nice there.i wonder why yanti gets so turned on by it right now.hmmm owells anyway my supposed new job interview is tomorrow.that of which my dad got for me to gain more exposure lets just hope everything goes perfectly then though i know i am so going to miss my buds down at underwater world.note to self must go back there to work in mid march or april when my "exposure" is up.anyway it is official as it seems as jerome told me earlier that cordelia is really with ivan how cool aye.anyway my parents are so fucked up now can someone please tell my mom that i really do not want to go out with her throughout this week.owells celebrations in singapore are fucking expensive i bought two big tubs from london for singapore $21 and here they are selling a much smaller size tub for like $26.50 now that is a rip-off.anyway check out jass's msn nick now
Life is like a dick, when it gets hard, FUCK IT.cool aye (: (: (:

like laura's friend said " their bodies are sculpted by angels"HAHA

see you on friday yanti!

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12:02 PM

omg thrishna dhalani!you dong i asked you to send me the pictures and you sent me seven pictures of you and only me in one.HAHAHA.thanks babe!anyway went down to underwater world with my mom ooo it was quite fun though i still feel so dumb after what monica and yanti said about me because my mom went to buy the $16.50 tickets and they were like do you know you could buy staff tickets?do you know you can get the dm to bring you in?do you know that you can ask asnul?do you know that we can like sneak you in?thanks babe i SO appreciate the fact that you DID NOT tell me any of that.heh.anyway i still cannot believe that my mom paid that much and still did not want to touch any of the animals ok dumb dumb.owells my mom is so in love with Gracie sorry yanti that we did not camwhore much today though as my mom kept telling me that she wanted to go and have an icecream.owells sorry babe friday and its on this time man.i cannot wait to head down to tp's open house that is like my dream school man though my leading ladies are like pestering me to go to cj instead aye babes i really just cannot picture myself studying yet again laah.it is just so morally not right.o and did you know that my dear rina is like taking chinese studies as a subject.yes strange but true.owells just got off the phone with vann chong yuting.damn i just love calling her that.turns out that she wants me to go crash cj with her tomorrow.lazy laaah we shall see what time i wake up more like that as my mom wants me to go vivo with her.so much for that i have not even been to vivo though i work like next to it and guess what my folks have been there like way before me.damn i feel so out-dated now.owells anw.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANTI! (: (: (:

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Monday, January 15, 2007

11:52 PM

wth damn blogger just deleted my uber long post what the hell.idiot.damn now i have to reblog even though i dont really have much mood.owells check out the messages sent between my friend and i
jessica: hey hey wooo im back.so how's school and all for you man
friend: back from where? how's school for me? are you really concerned or just trying to show off that you are on holidays
jessica: hey that's mean man you were like my ex tutor so like doh i am really concerned.im nice.HAHAHA.just got back from london.betcha missed me.
friend: yeah, missed you. i sure did! london must be fun! im sure you added on some pounds from all the feasting. hee hee. but still look cute right? what are your plans til term starts for poly?
jessica: aww i missed you too.HAHAHA.well ive got a job interview on thursday.yeapp quick wish me luck man. anyway i betcha counting down to your next holiday AGAIN
friend: yeapp looking forward to chinese new year.what job interview if you can get me discount then well good luck man.
HAHAHA what the hell which tutor would message her ex student such please.super funny la.anyway finally got my eyebrows done with mommy dearest today.yeapp after like two months.yeapp that is really long.owells to make things even better i got myself a really nice pair of black feltish material shoes.o the rush when you get something new.heh.how nice so that was a pretty nice early afternoon with mommy dearest.met up with my leading ladies after that at about six and yes i was early.met tan meiling at the starbucks there too.yeapp damn i so miss my babes.first time meeting them after like four weeks.sorry that i forgot to bring your presents though but yea you will forgive me.heh.anyway here are some pics.

my lovely vann chong yuting

vann why'd u leave so early?

camwhoring

over

and over

and OVER

AGAIN (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

8:34 AM

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, January 14, 2007

11:59 PM

im back babyy.yes it's official jessica is back to rock your world.HAHAHA.damn i love singapore.today's trip back home was the ultimate bomb babyy.i had like the entire row to myself and what does that mean.AWESOME SLEEP.yeapp i think the trip back is way better than the trip there firstly my supposed escort person in london was really sweet seeing that i was like your idea of uber bored she brought me to the duty free section to spray perfume and boy did she really spray like alot on me.HAHA.so much so that after my twelve hour long flight i could still small the escada scent on me.funny lady.to add to the humour they passed me my ticket without my seat number on it.but anyway owells thank God they allowed me on board the flight without paying overweight baggage fare as my bag was a whooping 33kg.HAHA tell me about it.alot of people are still pretty shocked at the weight.anyway i like that air steward and air stewardess on board.yeapp without them i would so get bored to death one of they even gave me one of those patrick soft toys thingy.only thing which pretty much annoyed me is that they woke me up from my sleep.o btw guess what i lost my $800 bracelet.what the fuck.anything more to blog about.ciao

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Friday, January 12, 2007

6:58 PM

headed down to brent cross today to do some shopping well technically was supposed to leave the house and be at cockfosters by 930 however due to such a thing called oversleeping it ended up being brent cross at 1230 owells.for once i did not like blow all of my money as much i would really love to i just somehow could not find anything that simply like jumps up and catches my eye.so yea i only bought two tops,two necklaces,one massive set of bracelets and three earrings yes tell me about it i am pretty amazed at myself too.i need to spend my money but i really have not a clue on what to buy.alright i better find some new things tomorrow as tomorrow is like my last day here in london it is somehow pretty bittersweet as as much as i would really love to spend more time here and do more shopping and check out more cool stuffs i really miss my friends LOADS but come to think of it my life back in singapore might really end up sucking as MOST of my friends are back in school or are working dammit i so do not want to end up being some lonely fool in singapore.people you so better keep me company once i am back.HAHAHA.anyway i found out something really depressing today and that is so far in this four weeks which i have been here i have not been able to find that nice pair of shoes.why?my feet are too small.what the hell please damn so much for those 50% shoe sales damn.ok so next up on my shopping list for tomorrow two to three more nice tops or probably some really nice looking bag.alright what the hell i cannot think of anything else to blog about except that some people in london are so strange like this fucked up woman which i saw in the tube.seriously she looked gross and she was putting makeup on non-stop in the tube seriously her face was like white and her lipstick was like bright red and trust me she put her bloody lipgloss non stop and she just kept on STARING at everyone.thank God we do not have such people in singapore.so much for that.alrights im hungry and yes there's no pictures today.HAHAHA cheers suckers.

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Thursday, January 11, 2007

1:21 PM

i am just way to lazy to head town right now.yeapp again i know fancy coming all the way to the great britain to just slack out in my god parents home.it has been raining non stop down here and the wind well it just spooks me out as it is way too strong and i looks as though all the trees are about to topple over any minute right now.anyway woke up at 11am today and i am just way too sleepy my body still hurts from all the walking yesterday i so have not been exercising for so long.what a bum fuck i think i gained weight.owells i am so going to go running once i touch down.i got to lose weight.o my gawd anyway i heard the neighbour having sex just now.i think.hahah.fucking funny.anyway really have nothing much to blog about today since i am like at home right now.which reminds me i so should start packing my suitcase as i will be flying off on saturday.owells here are some random photos so yea enjoy suckers

some solid architecture

west end

loves it

they are so NOT wearing red

les miserables

love you guys

this so proves that i rock in photography!

something about this photo just strikes me

view from picadilly circus

tiffany's

sasha and i

some entry to green park

save london's theatres babyy

trafalgar square.well part of it

national portrait gallery

i think this is green park.heh

tinsletown

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

3:02 AM

Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We miss everything daydreaming

Travelling i always stop at exits
Wondering if I
Young and restless
Living this way i stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and i don't cry
I only feel gravity and i wonder why

Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon

Hoping it would come soon so that they could die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end
Come to a
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end
Come to a
Why do all good things come to an end?

Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a
day until the feeling went away
And the sky was falling and the
Clouds were dropping and the...
Rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were whistling a new tune barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

why do all good things come to an end?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

6:15 AM

ok just reached back yet again.gosh i really walked like your idea of alot today.so much so that i felt as though i was about to collaspe as i walked down the streets ok or than again maybe it was cause my sugar level was dropping drastically as i somehow only felt better after eating this yummy chocolate biscuit thingy which i got from harrods now that was love it was just beyond anything which i can possibly describe.HAHAHA.ok than again that is kinda exaggerating.but it was nice.heh went down to tate modern today.the art there is really abstract how can just a plain canvas paint grey be considered something extremely artistic like seriously i think i can do a much better job than that.it is pretty cool that they had this whole slide thing which i thought was brilliant.was too lazy to head up it though as i needed to do quite a number of queueing up in order for me to just get onto that slide.so owells.well overall the trip there was pretty neat however i got really bored at the higher floors as the things were like on war.tell me about it that was just totally crap ok or than again maybe such stuffs just bore me crazy.shakespeare globe was really nothing much well it looked nothing much so i just took a number of pictures of it but did not go inside as the entry fee was like 7.5 pounds.tell me about it.what a turn off.owells went down to check out the theatre museum and the national film museum.yeapp it was pretty cooll as the view from there was just GORGEOUS.i even went up to the london eye just pity could not go on it as it was closed when i arrived there.tubed further down to harrods damn that place is just so super nice just that i felt a little out of place there as most of the ladies clothes were like gucci and prada.what the hell like i will so ever wear such on a regular basis in singapore.owells went to governor's place the various sites there are really cool just that the streets there were like covered in horse poo due to the changing of guards.it was pretty funny actually and yes monica i went to that hard rock cafe which you were telling me about.heh.didnt go in though sorry babe as i was on like the other side of the road and the traffic light was just way too far.HAHAHAHA.yes like 500m away please so yea.ive got a good reason.yay!did some shopping too but that the hell im pretty broke now.